notice of fall 2010 admission

"Congratulations! You have been admitted to the MASTER OF ARTS - WOMEN AND GENDER STUDIES program which is among the most competitive in the California State University system."

happy day.

coffee

coffee against my lips
it's cold by now but i still drink it
and the mug tips,
a little bit
slips
out the side of my mouth as i sip,
eyes looking past the mug onto my feminist lit--
coffee tear drops drip
and stain the polemic.

no energy for hostility right now.

Rachel G**** giving books to prisoners is the most ridiculous cause ive ever seen. why don't we worry about the children that can't afford books before we worry about prisoners who have forfeited their rights. criminals chose their circumstances while did not.

Jordon Br********** im sorry i dont see a point to sending books to a prisoners. why are you so interested in this

may a tragedy r.i.p.

rest in peace connor redd. and i am struck by all of these photos of you on facebook. i go through them and i see you and i am brought instantly to roland barthes' philosophies in camera lucida:

"by giving me the absolute past of the pose (aorist), the photograph tells me death in the future. what pricks me is the discovery of this equivalence. in front of the photograph of my mother as a child, i tell myself: she is going to die: i shudder, like winnicott’s psychotic patient, over a catastrophe which has already occurred. whether or not the subject is already dead, every photograph is this catastrophe."

worn

feeling so
worn,
so worn down.
ragged, dry, heavy.

hello saturday

not too bad of a saturday morning: cardio exercise and stretching at the gym; delicious breakfast of yogurt, granola, scrambled eggs w/ cheese, a fresh homemade fruit smoothie, and coffee from our new french press; i've been trying to hydrate myself all day w/ lots of water; and digging into my studies. obviously right now i am not studying... :) but i need a little internet break every now and again... goals for the evening and rest of today: finish praxis write-up, write memo (which means do the reading), read for independent study, and start Where is Ana Mendieta?

giant envelops versus little envelops

how exciting it is to receive a giant envelop from a grad school program i applied to and not a little one.

even though little envelops can have some okay news, like being wait-listed, for example.

pity the fool.

for tomorrow:
-presentation of roland barthes' camera lucida
-abstract for fem theories' final paper + preliminary bibliography
-reading response for fem knowledge production
-praxis write-up? i don't think i can finish that on time. might have to turn it in next week instead.

for tuesday:
-(another) presentation of the anthology companeras: latina lesbians
-position paper for latina lesbians
-prospectus from latina feminisms + annotated bibliography

for wednesday:
-paper for independent study which translates into=a shitload of reading on top of everything else.

i can't wait til this week is over..